MOODS in recent days

IN LABORATORY

Today is July 3rd, and it is the end of the first year of graduate. Nothing valuable enough arouses my appreciation when in retrospect.

All what I have been in inquiry of is analysis of netflow, which aims to classify categories of data stream torrenting in local network area, such as MSN, QQ and Xunlei, to just name a few. Nevertheless, progress is hard, and present circumstance seems boggled in morass, though Doctor Liu has been eager to hear encouraging news all the time.

Unfortunately, I am afraid that further progress would beyond my reach, in respect that almost six months were exhausted only to solve the analysis of MSN, E-Mail and BT. Indeed, I feel that my ability does not equal my limited ambition.

Another idea lingering over my mind is one that may opposite wishes of my mentor: I want to publish a paper while bosses seem to be delighted to see me being busy with projects. The reason why I mention that idea is that a released paper may help when I will apply graduate department late this year or next year.

OF MY LIFE

A novel called The Book Thief, ordered in Joyo-Amazon website, arrived the day before yesterday. That book is ranked 1st best-seller in 2007 by TIME, and some other polls did the same ranking. Did Tuan Tuan once buy the Chinese edition of The Book Thief? I forgot about it.

This is the first time when I read original English book; more exactly, English textbooks perused in classes should be obviated. Until now, I have finished the introduction part and part 1: The Grave Digger's Handbook. Albeit I have comprehensibly extended my glossary, a few words in that book still unfamiliar to me. Sometimes, I cannot pinpointly catch the essence of paragraphs in spite that I recognize every word in each sentence.

LUCUBRATING

IBT is on Sep. 6th. A month was dawdled after I finished GRE test. Now only two months are left to me for preparing IBT. Mike says he is a person who is not resigned to be content with mediocrity, but neither resolved to lucubrate. In my observation, this indolence manifests the instinct of human beings. Not only does Mike, but also common populace like me are struggling against that instinct.

Inertia is ineria, and I can not take it as a excuse, since the person who takes test is me, not anyone else.

First Blog after GRE

I thought I would be extremely enthusiastic and totally relaxed at the moment I finished test; however, feeling of calm and somewhat sullen walked into my heart. Feeling of the test itself is neither too excellent nor too bad, which does not exceed my own prospect. When in retrospect, in my view, the process of preparing for GRE is much more valuable than final score report that will arrive in approximate 6 weeks. On specific occasions, I even doubt whether I am going to take part in college entrance exams that coincide with the day on which GRE is held – April 7th. How expedite time flies! The scenario of five years ago seems just have taken place yesterday. At that time, I was waiting for score in anxiety.

CET-6 is on the way ahead of me. Certain persons ironically jest at me: namely, they cannot intrinsically work out what I was speculating. Nonetheless, I have to exhibit seemly good performance at least, no matter what others reckon me as. Oh, I almost forget about a peculiar thing – earplug; without it, how can I deal with listening part?

Recently, senior college students have been run round in circles about matters of graduate, including taking photos, dinning and graduate journey. These young guys are repeating what we have experienced, and junior students will repeat with which they are now busy next year when I will have to strive for a good occupation. Furthermore, I have no idea which category of career is the most one of which I am fond. Doctor, engineer, civil servant or to study abroad? All these choices will be fraught with ordeal and unpredicted fortuitous or ominous cocoon.

Kung Fu Panda, a Hollywood film shown all over the world recently, narrates a story about how a panda master Kung Fu. This movie is said to be highly evaluated and pregnant with japes; hence I decide to download it.

Another horrible thing: I am becoming fat -- oh, no, obesity. It is quite possible that overeat leads to my overweight. Hmm, well, then, go on a diet.

Mourning

A devastated temblor stroke Sichuan, China last monday and have induced more than 30,000 toll up to now. Yesterday everyone in my country lamented for three minutes from 14:28, the moment when earthquake happened last Monday, to 14:31. Personally, I am extraordinary sad about this aftermath and in deep pathos. Wish everyone who lost lives in that cataclysm subsist a blissful life in heaven.

Now I am in laboratory, or company of a numb boss in precise. I hate to code in front of a deadpan screen. Rather, what I want to possess is a serene pace and style of life, in which I can follow my heart without any confines. Nonetheless, it is somewhat reverie u may dismay.

There are 15 days left before GRE verbal and quantitive examination. I have been blundering comprehension and analogy. Strive!

Ennui

Well, I admit that sometimes ambeience surrounding me makes me feel boring, tired and lackluster. The prime factor leading to this qualms and trepidation must be ascribed to the coming GRE test on Jun, 7.

Hitherto I have addressed subjects for about one week. I could not keep chortling when confronted with those problems, in respect that I even cannot recognize key words in problems. Therefore, correct ratio of responses committed by me is extremely miserable. I am extraordinary weary! I must collapse into debris!

Another thing, which is about sentiment, is also an intricacy for me. Since 22 years old is not a very young age, I resolve to settle this private personal issue before the Spring Festival of 2009 -- approximate Feb in 2009.

Finally, life is still working according to its own laws, and will not change towards my mirage. Consequently, I will keep on endorsing glossary and keep on reading comprehension and keep on face tough Analogy, Antonym and Filling.

Maturing

While I am maturing, I discover sometimes difficult to seize leisure time for relaxing, chatting with my fellows, and touring. A variety of trifles just appear to bother me without any adumbration. For instance, I have been postoning meeting, dinning, and junketing over the period of preparing the Analytical Writing section of GRE. Nevertherless, schedule is still so tight and not as comfortable as I considered before a 9th, April--the day I took contest of AW section.

Consequently, in my view it seems that those phenomena are symbols of my growing up. The procedure of growing up to a adult is a process in which various paramount and relatively paltry matters play games with me. I would be a so-called "successful" man, provided that I won the majority plays aforementioned.

Another thing: Learing English seems to me that it is no longer a agony but rather certain pastime, which is more and more so during my preparing for GRE. This morning a tall, slim and delicate girl lined up in front of me, when I had breakfast at Xinxi dinning-room. So engaging, comely, entrancing...Hahahaa...